A bit like the 7-year itch I’ve been having the 2-year stay at home itch. I’m not sure what happened but the other day I just didn’t think I could be a full-time mum anymore. It felt like I was constantly changing nappies, preparing meals and barely keeping on top of the washing pile and not a lot more.
It’s a strange feeling being a full-time mum. You work really hard all day long, evenings and weekends too, but you don’t get paid and there’s zero recognition of what you do. You can’t take a sick day, let alone annual leave. If someone had explained this to me I might just have kept my job!
For a couple of days I seriously considered going back to work, I even re-wrote my cv! I’m not sure if I want to go back to working in museums or will try something different. Right now the thought of working and using my brain properly scares me. However, after talking it through with my husband it makes sense to stay at home, at least for another year, and then we’ll see what happens. I can’t believe how long it took me to decide not to go back after maternity leave. Here I am a year later thinking I might have made the wrong decision.
Anyway, when I look back over the last 2 years at what we’ve done and how we’ve grown as a family I think perhaps we’ve had more fun than I realise. The awful playgroups we’ve tried, the baking and crafts we attempt, fun days out in London and lots of messy fun in the garden.
How can looking after two lovely children be such hard work?