1. This was meant to be my first week back at work after maternity leave but as I resigned it’s been the first week of my new role as full-time mum. I’ve had a few wobbles about my decision this week but I know it was the right decision for me and my family. I’ve spent a lovely week with my husband and son, the sun has been shining and I’ve felt very happy.
2. I’ve got a Cybermummy sponsor! Completely out of the blue but a great brand. More details soon!
3. Edward and I have been to two fab events in London this week. On Tuesday we headed to the West End for Clarks’ Seasonal Showcase and yesterday we went to an event held by the ELC and Ella’s Kitchen at Westfield. It’s great to get out and about in London and it makes a lovely change from going to mother and baby groups
The last few weeks have been hectic, emotionally and physically. My little boy started to walk, turned 1, we went to Bruges for a couple of days and I celebrated my birthday. Then last week, just 2 weeks before I was due to return to work I decided I couldn’t.
I’ve spent the last couple of months trying to decide what was best for us as a family – to return to work part-time or give up my job to enjoy watching my son grow up. With the deadline looming, nursery place sorted and a new set of work clothes purchased (as none of my old clothes fitted!) I changed my mind.
The last few months my son has changed in leaps and bounds. I watched him take his first steps, learn to feed himself, copy me cleaning him up after meal times and enjoy interacting with other children. I don’t want to miss out on anything by not being there all the time. I think the decision about working or not is a difficult one and the situation is different for everyone but I’m lucky that we can afford for me to take some time off.
I had worked in my last job for 7 years so it wasn’t a decision I took lightly. However I managed to squeeze in some great projects before I started maternity leave and reached a good salary level and left on a high. Over the last few weeks the HR team really upset me with the way they handled my requests to ascertain exactly how much annual leave I accrued and they also didn’t sort out putting me back on the payroll! The whole process of returning to work after maternity leave just reinforced my opinion that it wasn’t the right decision for me.
My good friend drafted my resignation letter which was a lot more eloquent than I could ever manage. I particularly like this sentence:
During recent weeks I have been anxious regarding my imminent return to work. I had hoped going part-time would satisfy my need to maintain a work-life balance, but as a family we have decided it is right for us, at this time, that I resign.
I received a decent reply from my manager (considering I always found her really difficult to work with). I’m not sure when I’ll get a chance to wear the new work clothes but I’ll definitely be using the Orla Kiely handbag I also bought!
Today is the culmination of operation back to work. This afternoon I have a meeting with my manager to discuss my proposal for flexible working and I’m scared! A few weeks ago I prepared a document detailing how I could squeeze my full-time job into a three day week. I’ve been trying to anticipate the questions I’ll be asked but I’m so out of practice that my mind wanders off on other topics, such as the food order I really need to place, birthday cards to post and Edward’s first birthday celebrations.
Since submitting my proposal I’ve got a sexy new mum hair cut, bought smart new trousers and have purchased a new Orla Kiely handbag.
Hopefully by the time I hop on the train to work I will be looking smart and confident, and ready to face a grilling. At the moment I feel like begging to go back full-time. A lively 11 month old boy is actually hard work and I would like some balance in my life. Hopefully I will be articulate and argue my case and the next step of my journey through motherhood will begin.